Badda Bing Badda Boom

OK so I've got to go back for more radiation.

The calculus is kind of interesting.  The numbers are based on what I've heard and read but they are basically made up by me,  because I am quickly becoming a class of  very few on this particular neck cancer:  occult primary, removed nodes from left side, radiated left side, found and removed nodes on right side, radiate right side.  My numbers are:  If no radation, odds of very problematic cancer emerging in the next two years:  1 in 10 to 1 in 50.  So this radiation is 90+ percent likely unnecessary.  If radiation, odds of this neck cancer emerging in the next two years: 1 in 50 to 1 in 1000.  If radiation, odds of some kind of damage to the neck over the next 20 years that will be hard to cure:  who knows.  Probably signficant.  If radiation, other immediate side effects:  more whacks, this time maybe cumulatively worse, to taste and the rest of the things that one takes for granted in a normally-functioning bouche.

What I take from this is how much do I want to be on the planet over the next two years; what am I willing to trade to be sure.  ("Sure", of course, subject to the possibility that I could otherwise be run over by a Zamboni.)  The answer is I want it a lot, I'm willing to trade a lot.

The next two years will include at least the births of two more grandchildren, my son's graduation from college, and who knows what else.  Just not going to miss them.

And there will be much more after, I'm sure.  It'll be great.  Watch me.