Early Check-Out

Back when I used to think about doing myself in, I called it "Early Check-Out". As in, maybe I'll just go for early check-out.

I haven't thought about it in a long time (probably a good thing). But I recalled it while biking this morning. Not sure why. I'd rather be dead than exercising? If I swing left about a centimeter I will impale myself on that street sign?

Whatever the origin, it bothered me that, at age 60, I probably could no longer call it "early." So what other flip expression can I use to confront something monstrous like suicide?